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LOOK COOL DEAD

by Automatic Blue

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1.
DEAD 04:04
I wanna know what it’s like to be dead And fill that hole in my head So when I have nothing to say I can’t speak anyway I wanna feel your presence behind my eyes So when I’m telling my lies You have seen what I’ve seen And you’ll know who I’ve been We should have never came here And that’s clear to me now But I’ve gotta find a way to get better I’ve gotta find a way It hurts all the time But I’m still alive Don’t you ever wonder why It hurts all the time But I’m still alive Don’t you ever wonder why It’ll stay with you always Stays with you always I’ll breathe in your fucking ruth till I’m numb And I forget where I’m from So when I have nowhere to stay I can’t leave anyway And I found out what it’s like to be dead And filled that hole in my head So when I had something to say I couldn’t speak anyway We should have never came here And that’s clear to me now But I’ve gotta find a way to get better I’ve gotta find a way It hurts all the time But I’m still alive Don’t you ever wonder why It hurts all the time Don’t you ever wonder why It’ll stay with you always Stays with you always
2.
look cool 02:28
I have no reflection now And I no longer breathe I’ll abstain from sustenance And I don’t need to sleep Look cool dead You gotta look cool dead man (Don’t you like the way that I ride it) Marlboro crater tattoos Pain-Infliction chic I’m the heavy of this episode The same one as last week Look cool dead I wanna look cool dead man (Don’t you like the way that I ride it) I’m gonna look cool dead I’m gonna look cool dead man
3.
ASHTRAY 03:32
He’s got the money and the gun Pull the trigger He doesn’t drive unless he’s drunk Hardly even talks Words bleached his feathers Cult sycophantic killed his son Harvests better crop Can’t open his jaw I’m covered in white And I’m reading my lines The whispers turn grey Till I have nothing to say Before I was a communist I was a fascist pacifist An anarchist on the wrist next in line Hey hey hey hey Louder
4.
Hold me, kiss me Softly, sweetly With the gasmask you just add the happiness When I was younger I thought that I was autistic Oh my god, I’ve done it to myself Shoegazer Hold me, kiss me Softly, sweetly With the gasmask you just add the happiness Sorry sir, but I wasn’t speaking to you My son is also named Bort We’ve grown Not much is changing Complete orbit and still searching for life Below your soul is a cleansing of fire Above our heads divine tollbooth Below your soul is a cleansing of fire Above our heads divine tollbooth Sometimes I just need you to fuck me baby blue
5.
ALPHAPUPPY 03:03
Alpha puppy likes it Sell him the drugs Hammers in the living room and ashing in our mugs Cut the bank account in half to double my vision Boot print to the face made a head on collision There’s blood on the floor slipped in shit on the floor and you’ve taken all my money you can’t steal anymore My stomach is sick and my memory is spotty bouncer stole my phone from me and said come back with twenty zloty ALPHA PUPPY LIKES IT Heard he was a legend when he danced around the bog I couldn’t really see it when he beat me like a dog I’m not sure if they’re all racist but I think they may be sadists I’d say half the lads in here in trackies sipping cans are rapists Now I’m red eyed and vicious, paro and suspicious, walking home at dawn like a vampire with a day pass and I’m standing by a wall, can’t piss on these pills Rehabilitate the illest mates while counting up his kills ALPHA PUPPY LIKES IT This is closer to a nightmare than a trip down memory lane Steer the passengers to purgatory slinging that cocaine There was acid crowley flippy in a gaff in HFA From your wallet to your tongue to your stomach to your brain Heisenberg in my wallet but I swear I didn’t want it Heisenberg in my wallet but I swear I didn’t want it I was never there I was never there
6.
Fantasize how you’ll miss me after the violence But these words are so deafening when the action is silence There’s something in my head It says it wants me dead I don’t wanna be here anymore I’ve had joy and I’ve had pain But I’ve always held on to both so hard because everything goes away At least nothing is something I have known all my life where I’m heading toward But these are the happiest days that I’ve ever ignored There’s something in my head It says it wants me dead I don’t wanna be here anymore I’ve been lost and I’ve been sane I’ve always held on to both so hard because that was who I was that day At least nothing is something I’m feeling so lonely If you could just hold me Baby I can barely breathe Be here Don’t wanna be here no more Be here Don’t wanna be here no more Looks like tomorrow’s gone again Looks like tomorrow’s gone
7.
It’s in my head And in my blood But you need someone to count on It’s in my head Stays in my lungs I can be someone to count on The reason I feel love is so that I could give it to you I’m afraid to lose my only joy if my sickness gets to you too They tell me that’s what the drugs are for You don’t need to feel anymore They tell me that’s what the drugs are for You don’t need to feel like this anymore It’s in my head It’s in my head It strains my heart Comfort me, say I’m just anxious It’s in my head It never stops I think that it’s gonna destroy us The reason I felt love was so that I could give it to you Well now I’ve lost my only joy since our illnesses did what they do They tell me that’s what the drugs are for You don’t need to feel anymore They tell me that’s what the drugs are for There’s nothing left for you to feel anymore All of me will fade away Until I’m just a body All I used to be will pass away Then I’ll be happy All of me will fade away Until I’m just a body All I used to be will pass away When my mind short circuits Deranged and artistic Etching our time On a weak pale skinned canvas In the garden, in our dream But loss is a weapon I’d have killed myself long ago If I’d known you were heaven I’ll never let you go But I’ll let you let me go
8.
L0V3 03:53
If I come back I’ll be stronger Stronger I will finally fall asleep And wait for you an eternity Reach out touch your face Freak out turn away I’ve drank too much I’ve said enough So you wanna So you think you wanna try and love me ? So you wanna So you think you wanna try and love me ? My mind can’t be cleaned Scars under my sleeves I took too much I’ve heard enough So you wanna So you think you wanna love me ? So you wanna So you think you wanna love me ? If I come back I’ll be stronger Stronger I will finally fall asleep And wait for you an eternity So you wanna So you think you wanna love me ? So you wanna So you think you wanna love me ? They’ll never do what I do They’ll never think how I think They’ll never feel what I feel But you do, but you do Through the blood, and the cum, and the phlegm, and the vomit I am falling in love with you
9.
I don’t want to remain here Comforted by illness I know you well, eased by you I’ll die if the sadness feels like home It won’t let go I don’t want you to find me Suspended above you I’ll think about suicide Until I have gone brain dead Keep it cold Snowmiser Keep it cold Snowmiser Mr. Ten Below I was just trying to get well I was just trying to get well Then I let go Feels like home Feels like home
10.
I was nearly born with an umbilical noose around my neck But my mother made the nurses check And saved my life that first day I was nearly DOA And this is the hand that takes And this is the hand that takes I was so angry I was so scared I took some pills and then I- I fell asleep But I woke up Say you’re happy for them How could I tell you I could never tell you How could I look in your eyes and say who I am So I will never tell you I’ll keep searching for a reason to keep postponing all my plans I suspected you were jealous of the rope I selected to be the noose around my neck But honey it’s okay, you are the water in the bathtub that carries a shock from my toaster I am who I am I am Drew I’m so scared I’ll take me from you Everything I did everything little thing I did I want to tell you that I’m truly sorry Everything I hid everything little thing I hid I want to tell you that I’m truly sorry I’m not going to run this time No I’m not going to run this time This is the hand The hand that takes This is the hand The hand that takes Here come the planes I am the hand The hand that takes There’s still some things I must work through I’m so glad I’m still here with you

about

Drew Linehan's career as a songwriter took him from roaring youthful punk groups to Hausu's oddity outfit Repeater, to behind the boards on bedroom pop heights with Arthur Valentine. Throughout this tour of projects, his sound has leapt wildly from genre to genre, but the same core influences remain - the aesthetics and songwriting style of 90s alternative rock, and the bold, beat-driven production of modern hip-hop and electronic music. Automatic Blue's forthcoming album LOOK COOL DEAD (September 24, on Hausu) is the full realisation of this: it sounds like the spirit of Fearghal McKee being summoned through some arcane cracked VST in Ableton Live. Or if Elliot Smith shared producers with Kendrick Lamar.

LOOK COOL DEAD is also a personal and serious statement beyond his earlier work - all at once a darker and heavier Automatic Blue record, a more sonically diverse project, a more polished and cinematic artistic achievement, but also a series of notes on severe struggles with mental health and the long climb to break through. The spectre of surviving with suicidal thoughts is rendered viscerally throughout the record; the runtime of the record traces the space between the lines “I wanna know what it’s like to be dead” and “I’m so glad I’m still here with you”.

Second single L0V3 due August 13th is a key moment in the album's narrative, a widescreen reflection on wanting to love and be loved in spite of twisted self-doubt (“Reach out touch your face / Freak out turn away”); booming 808s and twisted vocoder vocals, cinematic synths and roaring guitar solo set the scene for a pivotal turning point, the track frequently shifting between shapes and sounds as it coalesces towards a climax.

The project's sonic diversity and polish belies its home-studio beginnings, made in a house shared with fellow Hausu members Actualacid and Arthur Valentine; tiny unlisted collaborations between the three artists appear throughout each of their 2021 projects. The music made in that house is to be celebrated on-stage this winter at the recently announced hausu@cyprus show (November 2nd, 2021 - tickets and more info at www.cyprusavenue.ie/gigs/hausucyprus-11134011) - featuring five acts and promises of new surprises.

credits

released September 24, 2021

all tracks written, recorded and mixed by automatic blue
track 3 produced with actualacid
track 6 written with and additional vocals by arthur valentine

all artwork for this release by rachel demetz
photography on album cover by brianna linehan

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